Haley's blog

Moving on, moving up

Im waking up I'm feeling what I was scare to feel before. I got my eyes wide open. The girl who has to have answers, guess what? Think imma give it up. For now anyways.

Run

I want him, he needs me
Could be love, but what would I know, only eighteen
Cause all I see is your face, all I see is your face
Pack your bags, grab a ticket, we're getting out of this place

Driving into the lights so bright
Escape tonight leavenit all behind

Run away with me
Rub away with me
We can drive, we can fly, whaecer you like just as long as we're free
So won't you run away with me?

Inception

Just saw the movie Inception. Fuck it's buzzy. One of the best I've seen in a long time. Definitely my kind of movie. Many people don't get my thought. The way I think. It's like this movie leaves you aski. The right kinds of questions. The kind of questions I ask about life. People ask me why I bother to think about those bigger than life questions. I say why not? Why not wonder? Could write a Mille bout it.

Like all the boys before

Survived the first day back. Calculated 14 weeks left. Approx 69 days left of my entire high school life. Can't wait for it to all be over and done. Looking forward to that night where we'll be sitting there and they'll say "could staff please dismiss from the front and back." Tears will be flowing. Tears of joy. Soooooooooo keen for that moment.

Can't wait for summer. It's gonna be manic. Crazy cool. Makes me wet just thinking about it, about how I'm going to spend my summer. Road trippin. At the beach for sure. But at a proper beach too, none of this half ass Auckland "let's go to the beach" stuff. What a dissapointment. Hard explaining to the mates that have never been out of town what an actual beach is. Waves, i say. They have waves. BIG waves. No wrap around your ankles ones, huge ones, massive ones that tower above your head ones. Ones you can at least ride. Endless ocean that reaches the horizon and beyond. Golden sand. Not Shelly sand. Smooth stuff that u sink into. That is a beach. That is love.

Great.

Back to school. Back to the madness.

Keep going until we run out of road

Just looking over some of my old stuff. My old scribbles, scrawls, i was actually pretty good. What was going through my head at the time... Good good stuff. What happened to my inspiration?

escape

Wrote my own lyrics to by Eminem featuring Rihanna. Will post a vid shortly of it. Debating weather I should play guitar or just karaoke it ><"

(Chorus)

Just gonna stand there and watch me bur n

Buts that's alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear ne cry
But that's alrigt because I love the way you lie

Look at you, saying all those things that I can't bear,
that I wanted to hear
But that was last year, thought I didn't care, but now I'm right back here
In your bed, in your head, all those things left unsaid
All I really wanted was your heart
But we're back to the start, back to square one, all of our feelings coming undone
And I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can barely breathe when you look at me like we're supposed to be
But it's not that easy, it never really is
I'm in this situation, in this predicament
Wish I could believe all of those things you said you meant
But now you're saying we should just be friends?

(Chorus)

Remember when u told that I thought we didn't have fate
But you were the best chance that I ever did make
A lucky break, that's all anything ever really is
Nothing more than just plain coinsidence
Isn't it funny oh how life can change
One small thing, it's a different story
A different picture you've painted, road that you've take
We made it, we had it, he mattered, she mattered, but they shattered
Bruised and battered tried to put it back together, like the time that they said forever
But forever isn't what it used to be, holding things together by the seems
It seems to me we should switch up the scence, tell me (you)

(Chorus)

Let's be serious, has it really all just cone down to this?
There's only room for two fish inthe aquarium
But there's three hearts floating around, beating, seeking, for some sort of completion
See I never wanted this in the first place
It's all turned into a game, one big race for my heart, but I'm falling apart, can we just go back to the start?
Back to everything, injust want the simle things like when we kiss, tell me this, do you feel the sane way? Cause ithink about it every day
And in the end, i don't want to feel the hurt and, I don't want to be deserted
Love. - I think we deserved it
(or are you)

(Chorus)

Peace. Enjoy. H.

Come back we're running right back

Just woke up from a fuckin good sleep. Hit town last night. Got too wasted. Felt good at the time. Not in the morning. But good at the time. A little bit too drunk to care about anything.

It occurred to me right now that maybe I should start posting some of my shit up. Like record myself singing and flick it up. Maybe. Wrote a really good song yesterday. Found the inspiration again. Quite proud of the self. I'll be debating for now. You might get lucky.

closer to the edge

Some people believe in God,  I believe in music

Some people pray, I turn up the radio

Just thoughts, so go ahead and speak

Heavy heart. Is that how to describe this feeling?